This is for you. If you could read this, if I could tell you who He is and how important He is to me, to us, this is what I’d want you to know.
I know you can’t recall the 40 weeks you spent in my womb, you can’t remember the growing and the forming. You were unaware of the process, but I was there the entire time. This is who God is to me. He is the one who has been there through my growing. Even the growing I wasn’t aware of, those instances that just seem like wasted time or time I can’t comprehend. He was there, He IS there, caring for me, keeping track of my growth, feeling every move and hiccup.
I know you can’t recall the first time I held you in my arms. I know you can’t remember the first time you encountered this new world. Though you have no recollection, I was there, arms opened wide to comfort you. Though in an atmosphere so unfamiliar, you heard a familiar voice, you felt a love you didn’t know you knew. This is who God is to me. He is the constant in an ever-changing world. He is the love I feel when all seems lost. His presence gets better and better, sweeter and sweeter as I look for solace. Even when I don’t know I need it, there’s a voice that calms my soul, that warms my heart.
I’m sure there will be memory of the frustration of wanting sustenance that you can’t provide for yourself. Waking in the middle of the night for nourishment that your body cannot produce. You’re calling to me for help, no matter the time of day or night, I come to give you that nourishment. Even when you aren’t aware of your need for it, it already exists in me for you. God is that for me. When I call, He comes running. When I seek Him, I find Him. When I have no way to provide for myself, He is my provider. He has all I need, He knows my needs before I can ask.
By the time you can read this, there will be plenty of opportunities of my grace toward you to seem to run out. There will be times you do things that may not be of my liking, but despite any upset, I love you, I forgive you, I will never give up on you. That is what God is to Us. He is the God who loves us no matter when we decide to come to Him. Jesus is the one who gave up His life so we can be free from the sin that would otherwise kill us. Our sin is forgiven. We have the privilege to pray to Him, to worship Him. To encounter His presence, even after we have went against what He has asked of us.
What a good God!